Last week I celebrated my birthday.
Every year around this time I find myself pausing for a moment and looking back at the long road that brought me here.
This year felt different.
Not dramatic. Not loud.
Just a quiet, cellular knowing that something inside me has shifted.
This year marks 62 trips around the sun for me, and in many ways it feels like the beginning of a new cycle.
In astrology, cycles of growth and transformation repeat throughout our lives. Numerology calls this a 1 year, the year of beginnings. A time when new seeds are planted and a new path begins to unfold.
And I feel that deeply right now.
But something else has been living quietly in my awareness for a while.
For some time, I have carried an image in my mind.
A wide open landscape… and a gate standing ahead of me.
For a long time I could see the gate, but I could not see what was beyond it. I sensed that something new was waiting there, but the path itself was still hidden.
I knew I was moving toward something.
I just didn’t know exactly what.
And that is often how the most important thresholds in life appear.
We feel them before we understand them.
The truth is, my life, like so many lives, has not been a straight line.
There has been trauma that rewired me from the inside out. Betrayal that cracked open what I once believed was solid. Addiction that took me into darkness and ultimately led me back to the light in ways I never could have imagined.
Those experiences did not break me.
But they did change me.
I am not the same woman I once was.
I am more.
More peaceful than I have ever been.
More creative.
More grounded in my spiritual life.
More clear about why I’m here and who I’m here to serve.
For many years I have worked as a psychospiritual counselor and creative depth coach, walking beside women who find themselves in the in-between places of life.
Women who have outgrown their old lives but have not yet stepped fully into the new one.
Women who have survived difficult chapters and know there is something more waiting for them.
I know that place well.
Because I have stood there too.
And now, standing here at this birthday, something inside me recognizes the moment.
The gate is open.
I still cannot see the entire path beyond it, none of us ever truly can, but I know this:
I am ready to walk through.
Not because everything is certain.
But because the woman who is standing here now is stronger, wiser, and more aligned with her soul than ever before.
Life moves in cycles.
There are seasons when we are healing.
Seasons when we are preparing.
Seasons when we are waiting at the threshold.
And then there are seasons when the gate opens.
At 62, I feel something opening.
Not an ending.
A beginning.
A season of deeper creativity, deeper peace, and deeper service to the work I know I came here to do.
And if something in these words stirred something in you, that quiet recognition, that small inner yes, it may be that you are standing before a gate of your own.
If so, trust the moment.
You are not behind.
You are not late.
Sometimes the most meaningful chapters of our lives begin when we finally gather the courage to walk through the gate we have been approaching all along.
And perhaps the path that lies ahead will be more beautiful than anything we could have imagined.
A Quiet Reflection
You might pause for a moment and ask yourself:
• What has my life journey prepared me for?
• Is there a “gate” or threshold appearing in my life right now?
• What small step might be calling me forward?
You don’t have to see the entire path.
Sometimes the first step is enough.
Walking the Path Together
Much of the work I now offer, through coaching, creative practice, and the spiritual community I’m building called Everyday Spirit Quest is about walking this path of remembrance together.
Not becoming someone new.
But remembering who we truly are beneath the noise of the world.
And learning to trust the quiet call of the soul when the gate begins to open.